freaky ass dreams! what do they mean?!

first of all... i'm not letting him control my life brooke. he wanted to come up here, i haven't seen him in awhile, it only made sence.

k back to the title... i've been havin some crazy ass dreams the last two nights and i don't have the slightest idea what they mean....

yesterdays dreams:
k the first one was really weird! grant was in it but his name wasn't grant it was stephen. we were in this big hotel that his parents owned and we were...i don't know.... dating? but i don't know this dream was crazy ass backwards! *brooke just to make it completly clear, i don't like grant like that! he's a nice guy but...no* so we were in his hotel suite, which is in the basement.... yeah explain that one to me!!! what kind of suite is in the basement of the hotel?! anywho... we were talking and all of the sudden he stopped, looked at me and said "I have to leave and you can't come with." *o yeah grant had a british accent too* and i was like NOOO!!!! but that's all i could say. then he kissed me but it was like kissing a shark....all teeth! o god it was bad! grant if you read this i really hope u don't kiss like that just for the sake of some of my friends!

then i had a dream about my secret boy... we were layin on the couch cuddling and then all of the sudden we sat up and he said "I have to leave and you can't come with." i grabbed on to him and was freaking out! i mean i was really freaking out! tears screaming..the whole nine yards! this one i woke up too tho and i was really crying... i was really scared!

my theory on both dreams:
i don't want people to leave me... most importantly my secret boy. i told him the other day that this can't keep happening and that i like another guy *which is true but i'm not gunna admit who it is cuz i don't wanna get my hopes up and he won't control my life! ;)* i told him that and he was like "whatever makes you happy... i'll just get over it i guess" and for obvious reasons that wasn't what i wanted him to say! i mean i'm glad that he's gunna deal with the fact that i have to move on but i wanted him to fight for me...just like every girl wants her guy to do... but then again he's not my guy....

back to the theory:
by my secret boy sayin that...he was leaving me and i couldn't go with.... * hopefully i got that right*

TIME OUT!
*i'm really excitted to see smitty tomorrow! yeah i shouldn't be gettin my hopes up but i haven't seen him in close to a month and i really miss him!*
TIME IN!

last night *and this one is the long one!*:
so i was hanging out with kylie *my dad's friend's daughter* and she was dating secret boy. well kenzie *kylie's sister* called kylie and was like o help me i need help o whoa is me! so kylie and sb *secret boy* go out looking for her.... well they get into the big car accident... and i mean like movie style car accident, and i saw the whole thing! they come back with kenzie and i take the car and drive around * o yeah my clothing in this story consists of my bears jersey, my letterman's jacket, and underwear! that's right i wasn't wearing any pants!* then i get this txt from chris phile that says "can you get this bootleg dvd for me? i would but can't... go see danta up on the terrace and give him the check that's in ur glove compartment" so i go up to the terrace *which for some reason is that little circle road up by gilliand's house* and i get out of my car...still not wearing any pants... and i hand the guy that's sitting there the check and he hands me the dvd and the check back.... so i walk back to my car and call chris... i was like "he gave me the check back... is that a bad thing?" and chris was like "no. he just called me and said you gave him a good show... what happened up there? let me guess you aren't wearing any pants." then i woke up and sure enough the pants that i had put on before i fell asleep were laying next to the bed on the floor....

my theory:
i don't like to wear pants

hehe


anyway back to today... i'm just chillin at mi casa... nothing much to do today. i should prolly work on my paper that's due monday... i might. lol i really really REALLY! want to transfer next year... this place just doesn't feel right. brooke has me almost convinced to go to ISU but NIU has been my dream for a really long time... maybe i'll talk to some ppl that go to NIU and see what they say.

o yeah i think i might want to major in business and minor in photography. that would be fun yeah? i've always loved taking pictures and if i could get paid while doing it then that would def. be a bonus!

ok i got some procrastinating and eclipse reading to do...

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PEACE!!!